Too Deep in a Jungle of Tangled Streets and Miserable People

Can i just say that out of the 20 posts showing on the blog for my other class, more then half of them are poeple freiking out that their semesters are going crazy and their lives BLOW and they dont know what to do with themsleves.

I am not discrediting them, i'm sure their lives really do suck right now, and this is the tme of the semester when people generally freak out anyway, but other then these poeple, i can name over a dozen more that are equally as stressed and worked up and hating life.

Its times like these when i just look around and wonder "what now"? Personally, i feel like i'm sinking academically, like my life is sucking, and like im completely in over my head, and it seems like all the people around me are in the same place. It makes me wonder if i'm in the wrong place. If i can't chnage my life right away, and i cant change their lives, i can change my location, and maybe this isn't the place for me. I take comfort in the fact that in about a month i will be home again with my horse and my dog. Back where things are comfortable and i have places to escape to, where i know the routine and i dont have so much stress, so many people depending on me.

my home life is not a walk in the park, either, but atleast there i know the game im playing. there, atleast i know what battles i can win and which to avoid entirely. i know who gives a damn and who doesnt, who is excited to see me and who could care less. call it homesickness call it dependence, call it what you will, but i'll be so glad to get out of this state.

i hate not being able to cook my own food on my budget, having few releases for my frustration, living in a city, having no place where i can see the stars or fall into a naturey escape away form the cars and horns and pollution.

maybe im old fashioned. maybe im just tapping into my indiginous roots. but life seems so much simpler there. and im counting the seconds til i can go back and stay.

:(